Okay, it's 413 in May 29th. I'm not sure if I should have the note. But I'm driving on the 101th home. And I was listening to the No Agenda show of all things and to a story that, to one of their clips, which contained Neil deGrasse Tyson talking to Charlie Rose about his book, unpublished, possibly soon to be published. But anyway, it gave me the idea of a possible ending to chocolate cigarettes. Basically, the boy who's 12th, Omar, I'm going to call him still, was on the flight home with his brother and mother. He has discovered that he is feeling like terribly missing his mother. No, he's not missing his mother. He's terribly missing the girl that he met. And I already forgot what her name was. But I'm a little flustered because I miss my exit. But anyway, he realizes that he fell in love with the girl in Egypt and Amina. He fell in love with Amina and he wants her back. But I'm not clear if he tells his mom this. Yeah, because he's too young and his mom may not take necessarily a liking to that. And so, he finally shits a tear. But he's sitting next to his mom on the airplane. It's the moment when he basically understands what she is going through. And there's a family that he feels empathy for her, and as much as he can as a 12-year-old. You know, he lost someone. But he understands what she must be feeling because she lost her husband. He lost his father too. But for some reason, you know, the added separation of him between Amina just made him no longer angry with his mom. He just comes to terms and accepts that she's just a human and that she misses her husband. And together, they both miss. They share the loss. Sharing the loss helps them move forward and be a family. Yeah, so maybe there's a moment where, you know, maybe there's a dog that someone wants to give them for their putichrisings or something like that. And he finally says to his mom, yeah, maybe it's time. We do something like that. I don't know. It's not clear yet. But, you know, we have to think about what makes him so angry at his mother. You know, he's so... It's a contrary for me to write this because seeing my mom cry had never made me angry. But it did. But, you know, in terms of my brother, it wasn't seeing her cry that made him angry, but it was seeing her lack of interest in being the mother that he wanted that made him angry. So in some ways, he lost his father and his mother at the same time. So that's another issue. Yeah. So that's the end. How can he have spent so much time with this girl if he... ...any barely knows her? That's the trouble. How would a boy and a girl in Shabbar spend time all day? They would have to not be known in the neighborhood. Or she has a twin brother. That would be funny. Yeah, I don't know. I have to think about that one. Yeah. I pause recording for a while.

Okay, another, the third recording. Why is it called a chocolate cigarette? Well, if you can't have a real cigarette, the thing that kills you, why not have a chocolate cigarette? At least it tastes sweeter and doesn't kill you right away. It doesn't make a choke. Another meaning is maybe Omar himself is like a chocolate cigarette. Maybe he feels like he's bad but sweet inside. I mean, another thing is like, well, if it's a chocolate cigarette, why not just have a piece of chocolate at that point? What's the point in wanting to still have a cigarette? Like for a kid who's dying to try smoking. I mean, something you can't deny. A lot of kids try it. What keeps, you know, he obviously, he could do it if he wants, but maybe he prefers to have the chocolate cigarette instead because it just appeases him. He doesn't feel so bad, but then again, he doesn't really know what a cigarette's like anyway. So, you know, maybe the loss of his father is like the cigarette he can't have. He wants his father, but he can't have it. So, he accepts the second best alternative, which is chocolate cigarette. Yeah, so chocolate cigarette represents the next best thing, even if, you know, it's a twisted way of saying the next best thing. And the next best thing is actually better for you anyway because you don't want the cigarette. I mean, you can't have your father back. You can't. It's like saying you can't have a cigarette. The only way you can have him back is if you join him, and you're not going to die. But maybe that's the sick twisted part of why he wants to start smoking. But anyway. So, yeah, so you take the next best thing, and that is life goes on. Life just goes on. Chocolate cigarette is the fact that life goes on. It represents that if cigarettes are life, if it's like there's the desire to smoke, there's being addicted to smoking, and then there's wanting to be seen smoking. There's the image of smoking. If I can't actually smoke, I'll at least accept looking like I'm smoking. If I can't be cool, I'll try and just make people think I'm cool. Yeah, so it's got to be it. There's something about how when he... All of a sudden, why is it now that all of a sudden he wants the cigarette? Why didn't he want them yesterday? And why didn't he want them at the store where they still sell them in the machines? I mean, the store would have glad... No one would have cared at the store that he had bought one. So we've got to figure that part out too. But... So anyway, that's another shoe. So yeah, so he takes the dare. Actually, it doesn't take the dare. It's just... It takes a challenge because the guy's like, you can't jump over the start like if you tried. And he's like a can too. Watch me. Or the pit, whatever he's called. And so he tries and he fails. His bite gets all messed and mangled up. And he's just... He barely gets out of it. He gets out of it with a few scrapes, but no broken bones. He's able to carry his bike home. And then he gets home with his ego ruined for a little while. But before he gets home, that's when he and his friends find the cigarettes. And that's when they make the pact to share them all together. And that's when he forgets that he's going to Egypt and has... That's the hold on to him. As opposed, you could walk through security. You didn't have to take up your jacket or anything. So he just walks right on through. I guess... Something keeps him from getting those cigarettes. What is it? How do they get taken away? I don't know how they get taken away. Maybe this dude is taking away from me. And man, you are too young to be smoking. Okay, don't tell my mom. Let's just try it out. Yeah, maybe that's it. And the flight attendant takes away from me. Stop the fire recording that.

Okay, so I'm still trying to figure out how... I'm still trying to figure out how they could spend enough time together. Now, um... maybe no one cares and they just... maybe he sneaks into her building. People would know this, I mean it's so hard to be... to go disguised... into someone else's. I think she is gonna have to send him messages when... the Boahab believes in everybody's... and then he's going to have to figure out how to get... to the building... where they don't have to meet in, you know, in their respective rooms. You could go somewhere and meet... if she's allowed... So yeah, more thinking on that, but anyway... another thought about all of this is that... and then she gets to Egypt, they go do the sightseeing... one of the things he always talks about is what he learns about Egypt. So he learns the geography, he learns the way of life, he learns all the stuff that he denied. I mean, it's not like he had to know the geography, but, you know, he didn't know all these things about how his family lived in Egypt. Those are semi-superficial. I think the harder thing that he has to learn is how this, you know, kind of group mentality where... no one's allowed to just think, you know, for themselves. I think it's super frustrated because you can't just go ride his bike. I really wish there was a way where they could both go to Alexandria together. And maybe she goes ahead of time. And, you know, for like a month, he's... could be one of those scenes where like... this is in the first time she sees him and then leaves and then he tries to find her. And then he goes to Alexandria with his family. Because I mean other than passing the notes, there's nothing that can bring them close because... and unless they get out. So, anyway, I keep... there's got to be a typical like summer love kind of relationship and I've got a... twisted essentially Egyptian style. Could be a whole netty thing too. I never thought of that. He has a younger sister or an older sister. One of the two, that's the only way it's going to change. No brothers. And the younger sister, he insists, has to befriend her. And then that's how he gets to know her. Now is it younger sister or older sister? If she's his same age, that's the best way to do it. Maybe she has a brother. If she has a brother, you know, and he's always playing soccer. Yeah, that's what Omar does. He has to learn to play soccer in order to... fit in. Yeah, if he... or it could be a scene like... it could totally be a scene like what Heidi did where, you know, he comes out to the club. And... Yeah. He's either play soccer out in the street. Yeah, it's better. He brings his ball. And... I'm not so sure they would mess with him just because he had a ball. Definitely at the 90 degree. I kind of think that if it's set in the 90, they would have more freedom to... kind of... I think that's the best way to describe it. But where is there a neighborhood? What's the right neighborhood where they could... because I mean, I don't know anything between Shobura and anything else. There's always high rises. So yeah, maybe it doesn't matter. I mean, it just can't be... in, say, a part of... I mean, the audience isn't going to know it your way. I mean, in Texas, he's going to come through like suburban and ranch style home there. His neighbors are far apart. Whereas in Cairo. We do what funny scene about Texas too. Now we come later when it's describing himself to her. But yeah, how do they make good Vietnam? But anyway, I'm sure I wish I could write this down. I hate having to talk it, although it helps my memory. So what will demonstrate how angry he is because his dad is dead. And his mom is constantly crying. And every time he asks for something, all she does is think of her lost husband crying even more. And then it just enrages him. And then he loses it on her one day. And he's like, this trip was supposed to be good for us. It's not doing anything good. So he's going to have a cousin. He's going to have lots of cousins. He's going to have his uncle. He's going to have rich cousins, poor cousins, cousins who live in other foreign countries. Maybe he's going to have a cousin who doesn't. He's going to have a girl cousin who likes him. And he's going to find out that he's allowed to marry his cousin. And that's why she likes him because she probably thinks they're going to get married. But maybe he kind of strings her along to become friends with Amina. That's kind of mean. Maybe he gets it out. Maybe they hash that out early. And then it eases the tension between the two. And then she notices him talking to Amina. Maybe actually she knows. Yeah, and he's going to have to have a cousin. He's like his age and all that kind of stuff. He's going to take them places like where are they going to go? They're going to go to the pyramids. They're going to go to the museum. They're going to go to, I wonder if they'll go on blisteringly hot in the outcruise maybe. I might go down south to see the other symbol. I might go to Red Sea, I might go to Elexandria. The way it is is like they may not be in Egypt again for a long time. So they do all these things together. But how does he talk to the girl who lives next door if he's always traveling? It's definitely a younger girl with an older brother who's left at home because their father is always traveling. Let's focus back on the plot. What's a chocolate cigarette? It's something that overarching themes that's consolidated on. Why is it called chocolate cigarettes? Well, it's like an oxymoron in some ways, but a good oxymoron. That's what cigarette is something bad for you. As a symbol, it looks like something bad for you. But when you have a chocolate cigarette, it's just a piece of chocolate. But it's a prop that both symbolizes something cool. And yet the real cigarette is not good for you. It's like how we can have all these twisted meanings in a story that we don't completely understand because we don't understand why he's mad at his mom who died. And he's also mad at his dad. I mean, he's things he doesn't understand. And it's explained that he's always, you know, he has these emotions that he doesn't understand. And he says, I'm mad at my mom and I don't understand why. So yeah. What else? I've got to figure out when we pause this again.