Alright, it's Tuesday, January 21st, driving to work, passing Safe William Navato at Alameda Del Prado. Well, that's the next exit. On the 101 heading southbound it was just listening to the Noah Jembe show. It's 7 o'clock 8 a.m. I'm going in early because of a staff meeting. Heidi has the day off. I guess there's a lot of things on my mind and I want to get a clear head or at least clear make my head a little bit clearer. I've got things from you know just watching cats yesterday to having a weird dream to actually seems like I had two nightmares in the past five days at least. Yeah. And yesterday it was Martin Luther King, Jr's birthday I think. I hope it was or that I don't know if it was the day he died, but it's Martin Luther King, Jr. holiday. And I should obviously know that, but I don't. What else happened? I did some very minor work on my table on Saturday and I helped Dave play off the shellac on his boards for his truck or the bed of his truck. And I installed a camera, the patio camera in the house. I did that yesterday. So a lot of interesting stuff. I guess a lot of stuff that's on my mind. I guess I'll start with the earliest thing which is yeah I had a nightmare. Heidi woke me up from it. It was about I remember had to do with a walk one of my co-workers and a friend. His girlfriend is from Ukraine and you know I guess her legal status in this country is up in the air at least in terms of her old bright status. That's what's keeping her in this country. But anyway I don't know that bothered me, but yeah you know I guess walk is also doesn't talk about himself. He talks about himself. He talks about his feelings and stuff. And he always shifts it back on the you or someone else. But he's a very smart guy. I had this dream that some reason we were on you know like a freeway in a car that would either getting pulled or going too fast either way it was a speed I could not control. And we were going up like an overpass. And then I just remember being taken around on that thing and then suddenly appearing in a room where he's sleeping and he's he doesn't have any clothes on. And I was very concerned for him. I can't remember what was about to happen. I felt like something was about to happen to him. It was extremely concerned. You know I guess if I were in his situation I'd be very stressed out. And you know if his if his his girlfriend doesn't get to stay in the US then she has to go back to Ukraine and he might have to go back there too. Because is he just going to walk away you know they're going to live a part and he's got a job and everything. That's super stressful. Maybe that's what this dream was all about just my own you know brain trying to come to terms with his situation. But yeah so there's that. And you know Heidi had to wake me up from the dream. You know I apparently woke her up like three or four times. I don't know when I had this either. I had this dream. I mean I had it last week sometime. I don't know if I had it last Wednesday last Thursday whatever. And so you know we had a and then Friday came and I got to work from home and it's a little stressful until I solved you know two bugs that were kind of hanging over my head. You know one was hanging over my head because Mingi was out and I was able to solve it on one herd you know behalf and the other bug had been sitting around for like a very long time. Didn't realize this and now it's been resolved. So yeah I guess I the the one that had been sitting around longer was for Dexter. There were two things going on with Dexter I think. One was that marketing cloud had some sort of load balancing going on in there authentication API and if you don't and the only way the load balancing will work is if you use some sort of I don't know if it's load balancing or if there's a new server I think there's a new authentication server put that the default address replace they replace the default address for their authentication API with a newer type of authentication that required requires me to upgrade Google OAuth but I'm not going to do it because it's going to start a domino effect and so they said legacy clients will still be allowed to use the legacy these URLs and basically I had to static hard code the the authentication URL to the API and once I did that it seemed to work so yeah at least the I was able to create to authenticate and create a data extension through the SOAP API which requires an authentication token authorization token and yeah that I had that in hand obviously once the authentication API passed so that then I had to troubleshoot it on the server so I was able to you know push my code to the server but I still could not authenticate and that's when I realized it you know it was that difference in that Google package because I had a newer version and was on the server and so the hard coding worked but then I could create so I ran through a Dexter upload and could get all the way to creating the API the the data extension but I could not get to uploading the data and so that was so I was troubleshooting it pretty much Thursday and Friday and Friday I was finally able to narrow it down to an error message that was then also posted to the GitHub of the Django Redis community and I found out that Django in order to use the Django Redis package you have to be on Redis 2.3 or something like that either way you cannot upgrade to Redis 3.0 that essentially breaks Django Redis and so that was that's where I am with that I need Rob to downgrade Redis and so that we can try again but yeah and that was where I'm at with Dexter and then I was given a bug for the EmberGive Public Project basically our main front end to give 2.0 and John and Julie experienced browser incompatibility issues basically on the fun drive page it was rendering in Chrome but not in Firefox and Safari and so I knew there was something different about the version of the JavaScript engine on those browsers what it was I had not you know obviously there was a different version but why was it airing I had no idea so at first I started chasing down browser compatibility and the Ember project had clearly been out of browser compatibility for a very long time and so that needs to be upgraded still but it seems like you can be out of browser compatibility for a while and still be compatible I mean basically if you target Chrome you've got 90% of the browser market so I was chasing that but then it really didn't get me anywhere I thought I mean I couldn't there was nothing changing you know when I set the browser compatibility to well it had appeared that it was already set so and the only differences in the browsers were that there was a difference in Firefox but there wasn't a difference in Chrome and so it seemed it was more and more less likely that it was due to a browser compatibility problem so and on top of that the error message that I was getting was a logic error it was not actually it was a is an undefined error which meant a variable was not initializing it was not retaining its value and that is yeah a logic or a data structure error and if you are of the belief that you should initialize your variables you know before in your code then it becomes a syntax error or a logic error it's one of those borderline things so when I noticed that items was the you know the object had no attribute items then I knew that something wasn't getting initialized properly and then I that led me to the fun drive controller I believe yeah and I noticed that items actually know the application controller if I remember correctly yeah the application controller was was defining items as the items in the basket so these were like you know funds and the amount to be donated for each fund in the basket so when and the code established just defined you know it's interesting that you can use a let statement to declare a variable without and if but arrays are always interesting if you mean I guess it will assume it's either a string or an integer unless you specify it as an array or an object so if you're declaring a variable that is to be used as an array or an object you have to initialize it accordingly or else it will be assumed that it's an integer or a string and so in this case I know I noticed that the code was not initializing it as an array so once I basically took that let items statement and I converted it to let items equal empty array to brackets it's the page started rendering in the browser so I pushed the code in that that allowed it to be seen so actually there were a couple of bugs that I had resolved last week regarding the user acceptance testing one with one was that was a big one because I was in everybody's face the minute they tested the fun drive page but the others were testing failures and there was yeah a failure on meaning a credit card declined and wasn't coming in properly as a failure and not getting redirected to the failed the credit card failed page but there was another one and I can't remember it I'll have to dig through my notes to make sure that I'm still covering that one but anyway that was just the stuff related to my work that was on my mind and of course you know it's really hard to talk about how I'm trying to solve a logical problem you know and the stress of having to solve trying to work out that logical problem with others they just they don't get it you either you know I mean trying to explain this to Heidi you know I love her to death but she is not a programmer she does not have a programmer's she can solve problems don't get me wrong she's very good at that but doesn't have the patience to logically solve stuff to step through an order of operations and actually in reverse because that is what debugging is and I don't blame her for not having the patience but when I try to explain that my frustration is over this I can tell that she just loses patience and it's more about emotionally trying to listen to me talk to them then anything else reminds me I have to call her before I get in toward my mat the exit the 580 exit for the Richmond Bridge now so yeah let me pause this for a time

Okay, I started a new file just in case this file is getting too unwieldy. But yeah, so at the end of the day Friday I had two bugs solved. And that's when I think we decided, well let's go out to eat and watch Frozen 2. I was feeling in a good mood, it's feeling generous. And I can tell no one wanted to see cats so yeah. We rushed off to the theater. It was at the Reading Theater, Reading Cinemas in Runner Park, which isn't the best, but that's where it was playing. And Kiko and I went to Chick-fil-A to eat and Lulu and Heidi went to Amis. And then we kind of rushed through that. I went to see Frozen look I totally get why people like the movie but I found it a complete bore. The plot did not draw me in anywhere near the first Frozen. Well no real breakthroughs after a breakthrough movie. I mean I forgot really what it was about Frozen the first movie I think it was. I think there were a lot of things left undone in the first movie. There was a lot of way to Swedish based on a Swedish children's table or story or novel I can't remember. The Snow Queen and Disney in the old-fashioned sense left everything left the assumptions as everybody was at Nikolj Caucasian. Not just Nikolj Caucasian but Scandinavian. I think when Frozen first came out, it was 2012 or something like that. Eight years ago there was a certain... The criticism of the diversity was a minor role in the film's success. I mean it didn't have a minor role in it. It was backstage like you know people admitted it wasn't diverse but it didn't hurt the success of the film. But over the years went on you know there was no way Disney could pull off Frozen 2 without being much more inclusive. And so you could tell that they were trying to do that in Frozen 2. And honestly that makes the story weak. I'm sorry I did. I don't want to be... it distracts the reader from the overall plot. I don't want to know that you're trying to you know slay two types of dragons. One that you can't read about and another that you're obviously reading about. So that's really distracting and annoying. As much as I care about diversity, I don't care about it in my stories. You want a diverse story telling African story. But don't go telling a Scandinavian story with Africans in it. It just doesn't work. Or a Scandinavian story with a Native American twist. And so I will admit one thing. I really did like the Stone Age reference in Frozen 2. With a termed Marshmello I guess because Frozen 2 is set in the summertime. I guess when there's no snow and the snow monster was then a rock monster. It made it sound as if perhaps the people who lived long ago were a large giant. It could move huge boulders. So I thought that was really cool. I'm a megalith kind of bus. I always want to read about that. But then anyway, Laila loved Frozen said it was better than Frozen 1. Naturally she has grown and so they have won her over again. And I should add that she did not want to see Frozen 2 until her friends said, you should see Frozen 2. And then Karim also wanted to see it. So I let them see it. I mean I didn't let them. They wanted to see it. I said yes. So Saturday rolled around. We had Laila's cheer competition. But of course we had to go on Friday evening before we went to Frozen. Laila had her last practice before her big cheer competition. This wasn't really, this was just an exposition or an exhibition. I don't know. It was at Petaluma High School. For the cheer competition, there's a fundraiser at Apple Bees. And we had to go pay for a cheesy ass breakfast at Apple Bees. But Laila got to sit with her friends and she loved it and all that. It's so hard to sit here and watch Heidi. You know, try and you know, you know, you know, when she's not included or when someone indicates to her that they, you know, they don't, they don't like her. It really is hard. Especially when that person is already going through something. Really, it's a struggle of their own. So, yeah, I'll just leave it at that. It seems as if one of the cheer moms, I guess she's the different girl, the cheer program, I'm not really sure how that works, but her daughter's going through a difficult time and then she'll have brain surgery. So, she seems to be fine now, but cognitively she's not. So, but I mean, you wouldn't know this but just talk into it. She seems to be a very happy kid. But yeah, Heidi wants to be included in all she's thinking is people and racists that can tell that. I don't know how to help her. I just have to, yeah, really upsets her when I need to do something. Drop that subject and tell her, she's not talking about it. Anyway, you know, we watched the cheer competition. That was fun and I mean, it was fun to watch Laila in the competition. Yeah. After that. What did we do? I mean, it was okay, so I'm pausing because I realized that I have to get off here and this Mercedes is not letting me out. I don't want to get off the freeway. And now I'm off the freeway. There's a lot of cars who just can't look up their minds and it's frustrating. But yeah, last, yesterday evening on our walk, Heidi told me how the daughter of the cheerleading coach. They changed this. Talking about the two lanes now can take a left when you exit baby. But yeah, Tiffany's daughter, I don't really like mentioning names, but Laila mentioned to me how her daughter Bella was talking about Laila's hair and how dark and creepy it is. And I, one can, you know, my gut reaction is to think, oh, this girl has not really been exposed to people of different color. And also, you know, wears her sense of discretion. And so I really don't know what's going on there. I can only assume that because she's a child, she doesn't have a sense of discretion, but at the same time, she didn't indicate that she bothered by Laila's hair color. She is noticing that she's different. That's it. Now that's the benefit of the doubt argument. The other side is that people's differences are spoken about in the home. And I don't know about that. You know, I, that did upset me to hear that she had said that I really don't know what to think of it. But anyway. I will just drop it for now. And I hope that honestly, it works itself out because I mean, it's not our place, especially when it was so minor, to bring this up. So, you know, I think the hard part this weekend was having really to deal with Heidi and cheerly. And she really wants to support her daughter. But, you know, she has to accept the fact that she's going to step back and let her daughter do all this. You know, it's not about Heidi. It's about Laila. So the next, I think we're not going to see cheerleading for a while. And all that stuff is going to, you know, sizzle out at least hopefully, you know, people can chill. And, you know, when we do it again, either it will be the same people or not. But I hope that Heidi sticks to her word and says she's not going to be cheermom. And so we won't be as invested. And it will be easier for her. So, yeah. And that was Saturday. I mean, dang. We're talking about a busy weekend, emotionally. And then I hope Heidi gets, you know, rest today. Sunday was a weird day because no one wanted to do anything. But Heidi did. And we kind of ended up in one of those situations where, yeah, I don't know what we were supposed to do. I mean, Heidi had wanted to go to the city, take the kids to this ice cream museum, which really isn't a museum. But it's a four-profit museum. So, yeah, where they feed you ice cream. But it's a culinary kind of thing. So, yeah, you get your paying to taste things. I guess you could say if an ice cream place could offer you free tastings for a fee, that's what it would be like. You know, the kids didn't want to do that. Heidi kind of could tell. She got a little, she fell asleep. And, you know, when she sleeps during the day, it always puts her in a bad mood. And she kind of had taken a nap right after breakfast. And, yeah. She was awoken when I answered the door because Ashley and I'm not, I'm not, I'm just, Avery and Arya over there. And they wanted Lulu to play with them, which is unusual. They don't play. There's always sad because she doesn't get to play with them. And, but we were really surprised that pretty much played all day. And, yeah, they even went over to Ashley's house later, yes, during the football game. And, played there until the evening. So, I was really impressed. And, and so, Heidi and Karim obviously wanted to do things. So, Heidi ended up going on a very long walk with Cousteau all the way to Prince Park, which put her in a good mood, I guess, but yeah. And Karim played with his friends, went to Murts House and played most of the day. And, maybe that was what it went. No, I had worked on my table. I had already forgotten about it. I had to glue up. I don't know if I didn't do this Sunday, I guess. I did it Saturday. I was hoping that Sunday it would be ready, but it wasn't ready. And, the glue, can you believe it or not, is still not dry. I was basically thickening up the main spine of the table. And, yeah, it... I had to basically sandwitch two boards together on their faces to thicken up this one piece of wood. I'm still waiting for the glue to dry. I mean, that's a lot of surface area. The glue is sitting on. So, this morning, I... last night I checked it and there were still some areas where the glue exposed to the air is not dry. So, that means the glue, you know, between the board to still wet in some places, so I have the clamp still on. But, yeah, maybe by next Friday, this Friday, it'll be dry. I can take the clamp off and start working on the wood again. But, yeah. What else? Oh, and I was totally... I'll get any pods here because this is another topic.

Okay, it's me still. It's, you know, January 21st. I'm now driving on Calusa. Just passed the Kensington Circle. I had to take the back grades to get to work today. And I just, yeah, I wanted to talk about how I stumbled across, you know, all this information. I, I, I, about the, these alternate theories about the prophet Muhammad not ever existing. And this is just blow in my mind, you know. I'm having, you know, these, I just can't believe. I mean, what I'm hearing is amazing. It's fascinating, but at the same time, I don't know what to make of it. It seems too crazy. It seems plausible, but crazy. Evidence-wise, yeah, there is, if you were to, there is no archaeological evidence for the existence of a prophet Muhammad, period. Now then, if we look at literary evidence, and we consider the Quran and the Adith and everything like that, we have evidence there. But again, the literary evidence is based on word of mouth. And the, the test today is, or the standard, is that word of mouth isn't good enough. Word of mouth is considered here, saying court, unless you, you have a first person witness, and you have more than two, you know, and against a jury to consider their testimony. Then, their, their word is not considered admissible as evidence. I mean, look at all the tests we put. Okay. Just for our court system, which goes down as an illegal record, I mean, there is no official historical record. There are several different accounts, and, and partial truths that we have to consider in order to assemble our own version of the story, or the truth, a version of the truth. And so, this is fascinating me because I've just never thought about it. I've never considered it. I always thought that the people who were saying, you know, did the prophet exist or that they're just, they're just haters, or, you know, they're just right-wing Christians trying to, to, to, to debunk the obvious, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and now I'm realizing that's not entirely the case. I mean, if we consider the case of Christianity and Judaism, they get criticized all the time. So, even by their own scholars, so, and their scriptures criticized. So, there is basically an open, critical debate around their scripture. And open is a, is a flexible term here. I mean, there are communities where the open debate is allowed. Communities of disciples, followers of that religion. So, there are, you know, people who are considered, you know, followers of the Jewish faith, who can criticize their own scripture. There are, folks who are followers of the Christian faith, who can criticize their own, the version of the scripture. So, you know, what the hell is going on here essentially? If, if Muslims can't, you know, openly criticize their own scripture. I'm pausing because I parked, and, I need to get out and start walking.