Alright. Hmm. Walking home from work. We had our morale boosting lunch, whatever you want to call it. Um, gather. So, uh, that was a little bit nice lunch with not as good as... I did it at dinner time. I figured I'd figure me a new one. Uh-huh. I was down the Shantcock to all the sightings of dinner time. So anyway, um... Where am I going to begin? So I actually got this. I'll be at the idea today because I'm trying to approach this as a title first. Uh, at least right now, and because I'm trying to rework it. Title first approach, uh, very similar to, uh, a model first approach, encoding. So anyway, um, the title I like is, uh, research results. Uh, it doesn't seem to have been used before. It's got a nice dual meaning when it comes to the auto-biographical fictional travel log. Um, and that's what this is. Uh, it's a journey that Adam takes. Um, kind of a roundabout way from Iraq to, uh, back to the United States, only to use it in an aasia clinic and wait out, uh, possible news that he has brain damage. And of course, he doesn't. And, uh, let this episode of Lingers over him as kind of moment in his life, along with the other, um, and if, uh, he cuts along the way that he had no control over. Um, and he continues to take it and stride. Uh, the, uh, I thought shall I say the devout follower and, uh, good soldier, as you might say, have allowed him to just, uh, keep his head down and work hard and hope that, uh, you know, one day, the right opportunity will come his way and he'll figure out, you know, what he wants to do. Um, and he's also very young, uh, the impression that it left was really, uh, one that, uh, the effect wasn't well, could be something that we need to see. So, um, what, um, this trend says, I don't want to see the work. I mean, it goes to, uh, I think it was very rock. But what does he really see there? He just sees the base. He sees a little bit of bagged head. There he goes home. Um, on his way home, you know, he, this is just a minor stopover in Frankfurt. You know, to do that, may not be on the top 10 for Germany. But, uh, it's far too interesting the continent of the, yeah, it's so called Coalition. And even if they weren't the Coalition, they certainly, um, didn't stop the US from going to Iraq, so it was very curious about these people. Um, and perhaps, the child he's always been curious about the world. He, uh, you know, dreamt of, uh, you could say that he believed his mom went on a journey. And, uh, you know, that was his, his way of coping with her death. Um, and of course, is this how he raised for her on the front porch. Um, you know, perhaps, uh, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know. Tell him the way. Um, he said that he, uh, his feet was as if, uh, you know, I mean, as he grew older, he knew his mother died, but it started to occur to him that, you know, there were, about where technically unaccounted for, by all the people who knew her during the years, that, uh, that occurred prior to her graduation, I mean, after her graduation, and prior to her father, his father meeting her. So, you know, it always wondered, you know, he always wondered about that, that period of time for her, because, uh, in some ways, he often wondered, did she know she was sick? Um, or was it the journey that made her sick? You know, did she have a disease accounting term, that was, uh, a disease of the impulse, and, uh, did she just take off? And, uh, perhaps she took off, because, like I said, she knew she was getting sick, and she wanted to see the world. Um, now, um, the bigger question for Adam's mother is, in the story that we want to, actually address why she came back, or do we want to leave that, or do we want to leave it, or we're wondering in some ways, just like Adam's wondering, we want to know why she came back. And, uh, maybe we do, maybe we don't. Maybe he hit, uh, the search result, in some way, the Adam's search result, it's not his mother's search result, so we never really will know why she came back. Um, but, and another way of describing it, is that, she came back to allow Adam to go through the same process that she did, to, because, um, it's possible that, you could have been told, yeah, I, you know, Sharif is your father, and your mother will be living Egypt, and, uh, you come from Texas, and, and, uh, you know, you come from Texas, and, and maybe one day, yeah, he would want to visit Texas, but, Egypt, lose its mystery, it would cease, to become the Egypt that, uh, that she wanted, that she knew and fell in love with, and she wanted Adam to fall in love with that Egypt too. I mean, it's, it's no longer a search, if it's your own home, in some ways, and so, um, anyway, there's, uh, I don't want to keep talking, going in circles there, but, um, what, uh, so how can I describe that? What, uh, what Adam will essentially be doing is, is what his mother did, and, uh, but in his own way, under his, under circumstances, that are suited, and, so, like, you know, Adam's mother, Florence, um, had to, was, was a dream, you know, she wanted to see the world, she, uh, wanted to become a writer, and, uh, she didn't get that opportunity, so she had to force that opportunity by abandoning everybody, and, uh, or abandoning those that she, she loved, or who praised her, and, um, set out on her own, to find this man, and, um, when she did find him, all of a sudden, she found herself married, and pregnant, before, really, getting to, finish her journey. Um, um, um, um, uh, what makes it well? Um, she, uh, she, she, she, she gets a letter, um, that, her, uh, you know, I mean, she, she eventually telegraphs her, or, so she telegraphs, because what year is it, really, 70s? Um, she sends a letter to her parents, telling her where she is, and let she say, and, uh, that she's about to get married, or that, perhaps, she just got married. Now, the, uh, the feelings you may have for your parents, for your new bride, for your new husband, for the man you've been waiting here, and I like to see, and, uh, the guilt that, tears you apart, because you knew you left your family. Um, how does, um, that play out? You see, what happens to Florence's family, in Texas? Because she, um, receive a letter that we get, possibly, because, um, well, what, I want to kind of establish with another story, is that, uh, the, just a simple act of running away, of bending your parents' number, what has happened to you? Um, is, is an act of, like the thing of, they would get to her, at all.

Okay, so I'm just finished talking about how I want to establish that Florence's departure for abandonment of her life in Texas was like killing off her parents. They didn't want her to leave. They didn't want her to marry someone. Crazy Egyptian, they didn't know if he was roaring her into it. Prison of a relationship and a lifetime of confinement or if she was going to a country that was prone to unrest and law that did not cater to women. It looked like she wasn't going to live a Christian life anymore. That was the greatest fear they had. That's a figure out. You know what Florence's parents did. I mean the mom was a teacher. It was quite possible that she had a nervous breakdown until there was an inshutterself. I think it's going to have to be the way it goes. Then Florence came back. Her disorder turned to the worst and she ended up behaving like that. She was living another life. Everyone just took it as if she had gone crazy because her parents had no one ever thought that maybe she had a hunting disease. Maybe they did not. Maybe they didn't know if they were ready to be asked about that. Maybe that's how this place went. I think I was out there. I think it's good to have had a dealt with it all. Maybe she... The living room was father wasn't fun. Father was depressed all the time. I think it was full of poems.

I want to talk more about it. Now that I've established the story titled Canada, Bones of the Story, because I mean, essentially Adam's going to get a slowly re-roward to Egypt to discover his true identity and what caused his mind to leave such a... And that ultimately, there's life in some way an inversive discovery of search result. He was searching and he found the results. And Adam's basically going to have an imaginary friend, an imaginary sidekick. Netside kicks John for our Google. He will appear in the story as if he's always at Adam's side. He will be an ideal, idealized character. And it's going to be the guy that Adam's always got a question to. And they will be anything from spiritual questions to technical questions, and he's always going to refer to the fact that Google has all the answers. Not until the end of the story that we knew might actually just have a little deal with this. Not sure yet how to establish that. But... He might have to abandon Google and he follows the trail that leads to his mother. That means to be seen that what is the actually do you want to be found? I don't know. Maybe nothing. Maybe he's just quite... He doesn't have a consequence. Maybe he can go back to Texas. And... Has peace. Maybe he can be there. And maybe he can be there. And maybe he can be his father. And then the pyramid. Not that sure. So anyway. Just occurred to me that one episode which had to be the story of his house, Adam's father, George, had to be chasing down one day because he ran off. I'm thinking that he had to find his mother. So that's a kind of a foreshadowing of Adam's journey later in life. And you know, he will talk about it like some non-silent college backpacking trail. But deep down inside he will have wanted to do this ever since his mother died. So that's how I guess you could say his journey starts. So anyway. And it depends between this story and say the way I were to tell it from a historical, historical perspective. It's Adam's own realism. That one what makes his own impression. In terms of art, it's not. It's an impressionistic perspective. And it's important to emphasize this through perhaps Adam's commentary on architecture. But there's such a thing as a realist architecture and an impressionistic architecture. It's possible. You gotta find out.