Okay, it's 5.16 pm January 23rd. I'm on Marin right at Haynes or Canes. I can't remember. And I am trying to obviously get on the freeway leaving work. And yeah, they had some thoughts about Flight of Horace and finally a way to tie it in altogether. And based on, of course, I think the original Horace myth, which I read about in the... I think the understanding Egyptian Hieroglyphs book, not absolutely certain about it, but I have to double check that book. It's a book that goes one by one through each Hieroglyph and gives examples of its use in art, text, and sculpture. So, or let's just say maybe a physical object like a jewelry as opposed to a statue and a document, a papyrus. And the one story that stood out to me was how... when Osiris dies or Horace's father dies and Isis is left to have to protect him from Seth, who is either his brother or his uncle. I can't remember, because he is currently ruling and does not want Horace to take over or to be a challenger actually. Does not want Horace to ever become a challenger to throne, which means almost exactly like in the animal kingdom, the leader of the pack tries to stay leader of the pack and ensure that there is no way in which that leader could be de-throwned. And so, if I'm King, I'm going to have many children, but I guess there would be children that I don't, you know, I guess we're talking about a king who doesn't want his at least his children yet to be come to de-thrown him. So, it must be when the king is young or early on in his reign or perhaps his reign is illegitimate, but one of those possibilities and... excuse me, I'm yawning, I think that's a sign that again I haven't had enough water. Anyway, I need to make sure I drink enough water to talk. And... you know, deep ingest. So, Horace is essentially slain by Seth. And... but his memory lives on in the afterlife. And so, what we learn is that legitimacy or righteousness is something that one can have. It's a character trait that one can have, but it doesn't automatically mean, you know, doesn't give you leadership or let's put it another way. It doesn't give you the power or it doesn't give you a title or a legitimate right to reign over people. So, again, we're talking about one's ability, you know, the king and their ability to control by force versus and rule a kingdom without virtue versus those individuals who are virtuous and are the worthy, the desired, the sought after candidates for a new leadership, a new reign, a new page in the chapter of that community's history. I'm a pause per second.

Okay, testing.

So I'm on the Richmond Bridge now at 5.26pm, January 23rd, and I am looking at the most gorgeous sunset to the east, to the west I'm sorry, and I can see Mount Tam, the silhouette of Mount Tam, and the clouds are literally just beautiful streaks of, you know, the pastel colors of a pinkish brown and orange, and there's even a cloud to the right of me, which seems to be rising, but as it's rising, it's catching the colors of the sunset, and it almost looks like a rain cloud that's descending down, so it's just beautiful, it's hovering, and the blue background is alternating patterns of blue and gray, where probably there are more clouds, it's just stunning. I wouldn't be surprised that the view from... The point race is just absolutely gorgeous, so yeah, I just wanted to note that, but anyway, back to Horace. So Horace is the story of Horace is essentially the story of good running from evil, and so evil chases good, evil is in control, evil is in power, and so it's a time in which we... it represents a time in which the community mankind is suffering, and is hoping for the day in which that good returns, and either... Wow, the orange is even crazier, stronger, now it's on the water, and still haven't gotten off the ridge, I'm approaching the part where it's flat, and you're saying, what? Even the water is such a beautiful orange, it's gorgeous. If I were allowed to take a picture of it, I would, but I can't, and so yeah, I can see even other drivers are looking at it, it's almost a distraction, but yeah, so where was I? Back to Horace. Horace is the hope that good will one day conquer evil, period. It is the hope that good, that a good that is not here will one day return in the form that it was remembered, and conquer the evil that has survived. It is a good that is forever hiding, not out of shame, but hiding in order to gain strength, so that one day it will rise up against the evil that had slain in the world. So when we say to ourselves, what is the flight of Horace? The flight of Horace is the story of the reincarnation of good. How it passed through the life of one woman, and was reborn through Rosalithia, Horace was simply her guide. Horace was a messenger, unbeknownst to him. Horace was a maintainer of the story. And what is it that Rosalithia does to re-incarnate the story? Well, not the story, to re-incarnate and to re-incarnate the story. I like the flight of Horace. I like the struggle of Horace, but is that really what I'm trying to say by Rosalithia's attempt to track down the story. The footsteps, the path, where did Florence go? And so, let's say you know, you have in possession a map, but you don't know where it starts. Do you not try to find the starting point? Is it a useless map at that point? You have a key, and you know it opens a room with great treasure. Do you put it on the shelf and walk away? Rosalithia found the letters of Florence, and she found the newspaper article describing what Florence had done. And then all of a sudden, she met her son. What was waiting for her that she insisted would be, or what was waiting for her that she thought would be a reason to escape to Egypt? What is it that she and Florence would both have in their possession? Is it an object? Does Florence looking for the other half of an object? Not Florence. Is Rosita or Rosalithia looking for the other half of an object? I mean, I suggested that it was chasing down a story, but I still don't know if that's a good enough motivation to literally run away. If Rosalithia... I mean, if we look at Alison Wonderland, she ended up going away, but she didn't run away. And Alison Wonderland takes you on an accidental journey that mocks contemporary life for that time period in England. It starts out as normal fiction and then completely descends into fantasies. Rosalithia, what is it about her that's just something's not quite right? Is it that she doesn't think she's ever going to leave her town? Is it that... does she feel like there's nothing she can do to overcome the confines of her own life? I mean, it's got to be pretty bad for her, but it's not. If she has, I've already established that she has a mother that loves her. And I've already... I mean, and she's in college, so she's made it through high school all the way to get into college. So, you know, why would she throw that away? What is it that she's going to have to do to throw it away? Now, don't get me wrong, she's... Either Horace makes a deal with her ahead of time. And she has to trust him before they get on the plane. Then that ruins the whole moment at which she breaks down. Yes, she has to break down. She has to regret following this horrible, this crazy impulse. Excuse me. Who were other people that have, you know, I have to find stories of people who have left and never come back. And stories of men and women who have left and never come back and what are they? And it can't be because of some external influence. It has to be like a story like Omseti where she was the reason she left. Now, I said that the flight of Horace, you know, was about... If we look at the traditional Horace myth, you know, Horace represents the good that never was allowed to be. I had a thought that was a secondary thought about the flight of Horace and I can't see. So I think it was related to Horace's name. Yeah, like it's... It suggests that Florence was raised southern Baptist. And... But in her... In her secret reading of the life of Omseti and Egypt and the royal road to romance and all that, she... She becomes so enamored with it that she wants to escape and go there. How does she also want to start worshipping in the ancient Egyptian religion? Does she come to believe that she herself will be reincarnated? And what does it mean to be reincarnated? And then Horace, what does he know? I mean, let's say for example, he has a westernized version of his name, H-O-R-A-C-E. And so how does he come to terms with the thought that perhaps he was named after a god of an ancient Egypt? I mean, you know, if he was raised Muslim, then wouldn't he have been... Wouldn't people have teased him about his name? And so, or wouldn't... That wouldn't that have come up in his life that he has the name of a kefir, an unbeliever? And if his father was Muslim and if his mother became Muslim, how then would he have been allowed to keep his name? So we have to think about that. Is there another Arabic word that sounds similar? I don't think so. And... Maybe it was a stipulation of his Christian mother. Maybe his mother never became a Muslim. Or maybe she did become a Muslim and she told her husband the only way I will become a Muslim is if you name our son Horace. And thus keeping the memory of Horace alive. That's kind of... Alright. I guess I can deal with that for now. I'm going to pause it.

So I've talked about now at the Nevada Narrows here and I've talked about the myth of Horace, I need gods and goddesses of ancient Egypt book and I need you know like just your basic Egyptian religion and mythology book and I need to learn more about them, SETI and I need to learn about travelers who remained in distant lands that someone would have access to in small town, Lamisa in or even small town, Lamisa in 1955 or 1989 or yeah because if she was going to move on to Texas Tech then yeah so what would be another traveler? That's what I got to think about and would Rosa Aletia have anything to say about the Mesoamerican culture that she will identify with or the the Mexican culture that she will have come from. Those are other things that you know we have to consider will she just how will she take the bait? How will I mean one how does she get on the plane when she has no ticket? I totally forgot why. I mean is she really that gullible that she would be just this guy would give her an airplane ticket and she would take it and if you got a free ticket somewhere yeah maybe maybe she prepared by packing her bags and telling herself that I'm just going to go through the motions I'm not really going to go there I'm just going to get to the airport but I'm not really going to get on the plane. I'm just going to go through security just to see who's in the waiting area or in the gate. Was there something that she saw on horse? Now was there something that she needed to know maybe it was in the letter that yeah maybe this letter was a letter that Florence had sent to Nassim but she never sent it so he never read it and inside that letter it says and you will meet Horace one day when we are united in Egypt when you and I are united in Egypt now what do you suppose yeah I will have to be something so compelling like that like okay whoever it was clear that Rosa Alithia was the first to come into contact with this letter ever since Florence placed it there and and therefore she is now the official recipient of the letter perhaps it was intended for Nassim but and maybe it will be a letter and that provides some sort of closure. So if it's a device that creates the conflict, it should also be the device that ends the conflict. So the... maybe the letter itself is Rosita Stone. Maybe Florence is Maine. That she always used was Rosita. Yeah, maybe there's something like that going on. Like... I have to go back. So, you know, there was nothing keeping me. I'm not going to go back. You know, there was nothing keeping Rosalithia in La Misa anymore. She was living in Concepcion's house, working at the newspaper. And maybe she wasn't even living in Concepcion's house at the time. Maybe... She in the librarian had... she was just getting living in a room. That the librarian's assistant had led out to her. And so... Yeah. Maybe the librarian's assistant felt sorry for her. Or, you know, something like that. You know, now that she was kind of over 18, Concepcion had died, so she didn't have a place to stay anymore. And things just worked out. I mean, it is a bit of a stretch to drive all the way to Levek from La Misa. But if you've got free rent, why not take it? So, that's one possibility. But then she would have to... Maybe the librarian's assistant is a bit kooky. And maybe she convinces her to do it. Yeah. I'm going to think about this because I don't want it to start taking up more space in the story than necessary. Every time I suggest... And why do I need to dwell on motives so much? Why can't the story just be that? I don't need to constantly make excuses for the characters. So, let me think about that. I mean, obviously people will criticize not understanding motives, but is that really my problem that they can't understand the motive? I mean, does every motive have to work? Does every character have to have a motive? I mean, if we're talking about mixing myth, fiction, and history together, why does motive have to matter sometimes? Does it have to matter all the time? No. All right, I'm pausing this.