Alright, it's Saturday, February 25th, 3.25pm. I'm driving on the waterway south to a passenger's and a bridge center. I'm listening to Station 11. We just took a book. I think it's a Stopeen novel that I discovered by the TV adaptation on an HBO. And I can't keep my mind off because of the way in which the story has told the... I just really love how the narration knows what's going to happen. It retails it as if it's a tragedy that you can't stop. And it's just fascinating, especially all these stories that are exhibited as unfinished. So, they won't be finished unless it looks like part of the tragedy. But yeah, it's definitely causing me to think about it a lot and to think about how to re-enfigure it by my inspiration to tell my own story. And that's why I'm starting recording now. I also probably just want to talk about myself. I want to talk about my emotional issues around my anxiety. I'm driving right now. Heidi's not with me. And perhaps that's also why I'm feeling a little bit anxious. I'm also driving to my 25th anniversary at the High School. It's 20th at the reunion. Kind of nervous about it. I just don't feel like... It's problematic for me at all. I don't feel like I deserve to be there even though I graduated from there. And that's all we're celebrating, although the school is definitely excited about it. It's most popular, graduates or it's most accessible. But yeah, I'm not one of those. But I'm going to have graduated from that program with the intent on at least through my work and the program the intent on improving the information system in the universe. So I'm kind of nervous and anxious about that. And of course, even more of a backstory that I'm going through this self-reflection and self-assessment of whether or not I have ADHD, we're just an anxiety disorder. I'm not really sure. But that's running around in my head as well. But yeah, so I'm about to... my story. And one of the reasons why I feel like I think about my story or during times of anxiety. I don't know why it's kind of become like a book of spells that I mean that's essentially what I want to talk about. It's like, what is this thing that I have to tell? But yeah, I don't really do anything with it other than tell it to myself. I almost feel like, yeah, there is a... medicinal quality that's telling it, it's a potion like quality. And sometimes, you know, when I tell it, I feel better. So what's going on there? Well, maybe I'll know exactly what's going on. But one thing that is very interesting is that... what I'm knowing that and then how to incorporate it into Florence's story. So I want to take advantage of how you can tell a story or the story that is told by the spell. And you know, the spell is obviously supposed to protect you. But how do you tell a story of protection knowing that... Well, how do you tell that story and kind of weave it into another story of me? So we go back to the story that I was applied of for a story. How do you tell it? You know, in terms of... In each chapter of spell, for example. And if so, you know, how do you... if the event occurs then what is the end goal of the story to pass through the afterlife? In some ways, it could be the flight before us. So, you know, that's where I'm going with all this. Well, one other option for idea of this... Retelling, you know, in an illustrated form using old pages of an actual copy of the book of the dead. Using, you know, the images... You kind of play out for the scenery that... The illustrations of the book in the dead itself are... You know, are kind of... Source illustrations for the derived illustration in the book. So, yeah, at that point where I feel like I told it, and now I'm emotionally exhausted about selling it. Maybe at the moment where I feel better, I'm not really sure. It does fill me with, you know, very mild... I can't decide it, respond. And, you know, that in some way would be like a chapter in the book. When you come up with a good story that's an endorphin-like experience, it's about... Maybe that's the whole point, and to continue to pre-tell... and to reel that endorphin to use the strength of the word and spell. It's interesting on how you would do that in a fictional form. Maybe, if I go with already, trying to hook it into a writing class, one character who's a writer, and so if I am to place it in the story, I'm already drawing a blank on her name, but the Latinx character who works in the Dotton County Water Department, has a side job, but she's also writing to the green writing student. And, you know, just heard that lecture on... you know, casting spells... The written word is like a spell. And so, yeah. And maybe the instructor in that class can have something interesting to say and make it all come together for her. You know, in an interesting way. I'll give it a go. All right, that's all I got.