So take its February 6th, Saturday 11.08 am. I don't know if this is my first dictation since the quarantine started but it feels like it's almost 90% certain it is. I'm driving on Redwood Highway to the Delk. Got a car full of boxes and they just need to go into the recycling bin. So yeah, I'm mainly doing this. Well, you know, I feel like, you know, Lisa kind of encouraged me to do it. I can't get it out of my head. I feel like I have to do it. And I know she would tell me that's not what I meant. That's what happens. And so, I just need to acknowledge her. But more importantly, again, what am I supposed to talk about? Well, I guess one of the interesting things that came up that I feel like I should talk about is the fact that I recently thought of a story idea that incorporated the quarantine that I thought was unique. But I mean, it's I was definitely influenced by that movie. I think it's called Good Bye Berlin. I may have the title wrong but that movie about the man who was the grandmother who went into Oklahoma to, you know, about a family who lived in East Berlin right before the University of California. And before the Unification of Germany and the matriarch has a bunch of German marks, German marks that need to be cashed in before the Unification started. And so, yeah, that's how it goes. But the problem is that, you know, those East German marks represent the past and Unification represents the future and that's how the story works. And you know, you're supposed to get the past and accept the future, whatever it holds. And that's really interesting, but the coma part was more interesting to me. I wanted, I thought it would be interesting to write a story about a man who falls into a coma before COVID hit. And wakes up after it's over, after essentially perhaps say, you know, the last temporary vaccine center gives out the last shot and closes down. And he wakes up knowing that he was vaccinated while under a coma. So, you know, he was protected, but, yeah, that's another aspect of the story. The idea is that he has no idea what happened during COVID and wakes up basically to find out that he slept through the pandemic. And that's how it goes. I am absolutely certain there are writers working on it right now and they're offering submissions of various different versions of this, either to movie producers or publishers or agents. And the struggle is to whether or not we actually want to hear about it right now. Maybe you want to hear it. I mean, if you think about it, this movie, Good Bible Inn, came out at least five years after the unification. I want to say much maybe ten years after the unification, but I'm not sure. So, there needs some healing time before we are comfortable talking about these things. And exactly what does that mean to me? I think one of the reasons that the book, the story caught my attention was that that the person does that have been reinterpreted. So, rapidly due to the pandemic, it's a simple fact of wanting to hug someone and no one wanting him to hug them, even though they're vaccinated. And, you know, his confusion is struggled with the awkwardness of that. So, yeah. But the bigger picture is, you know, the kind of perception of you if at all, do we want to hear about it? Are we, I think we're still traumatized. We're still getting, we're still in the trauma. Even though we've kind of, we have been presented with a capsule, you know, we haven't been presented with each other's resolution. And so, that's why I think we're still feeling trauma. And so, yeah, what do you do about feeling the trauma? And maybe that's what I'm feeling right now is the trauma. That's why I don't want to talk about the story. But I know it will be a story. What is the trauma for me? The trauma is isolation. It's a lot of pain in isolation. It's kind of weird that I'm blaming the isolation. I'm actually kind of constructed this trauma in one way because you can argue that our existence is in general isolation. I mean, I can feel traumatized that we are stuck on Earth. I can feel traumatized that I'll never get out of the never-ending death cycle. I can feel traumatized that I'll never get to play soccer again because of my heart issue. I can feel traumatized that I may never see Japan again. I mean, there's so many reasons to feel isolated in the world. But the minute you have to physically isolate because of my quarantine, that introduces a whole new sudden rapid change in perspective that it seems acceptable universally that this experience is traumatic. But while relatively speaking, it shouldn't be. So that is what is the most interesting thing about us. I'm at the dump now, so I'm going to stop.
Testing, testing, 1, 2, 3.