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Okay, it's 8.49am on Thursday, February 20th. I'm on the 5.80, just about to get to Central Avenue. So it's kind of late in my commute. But I guess I got started late, but also because traffic was good. So yeah, what has happened since yesterday? Well, actually I didn't do an evening dictation yesterday I should have. I was really tired and exhausted from finally, well, finally resolving the CSRF issue the cross site request forgery issue between Ember, Ajax and Django. But I'm not absolutely certain. I think I might have just put a mandate on it. But I have to hold, put that on hold for now because I have to finish my big give issues. So anyway, that's the kind of context where I'm at. And I will start the next dictation.

Okay, it's 8.51 am, Thursday, February 20th. At Central Avenue on 5.8. Soundbound or Eastbound, whatever it is. But yeah, so I've been thinking about Flight of Horse and I believe the last place that I, where I left off was I was perhaps in the middle of trying to describe the phenomenon where of how we think of the name, Horace, and what it really means and how there's perhaps a gap in the history. And so that's where I left that and I was gonna then, what I was about to do after that what was on my list was to talk about what the dialogue might be like or the context around Horace describing how he was named. And I believe I have a previous note about that where I describe Florence in the hospital and perhaps a nurse accidentally naming him Horace H-O-R-A-C-E and not Horace H-O-R-U-S. And the meaning and thus introducing the meaning of those two names and their links or not. But and then today I started thinking about Rosalithia and her motivations were getting on a flight, a one-way flight to Egypt. And possibly what's at the base of those motivations is an anger. An anger that one's life didn't turn out the way one had thought it would. And in Florence's case it would be that well she thought she was, or let's put it this way, if I am going to say Florence is my mother then in my mother's case it was in my personal belief that here is a year in which 1964 kind of a momentous year and civil rights movement. Other things that happened I think that previous November was the Kennedy assassination. But the world was changing good things were happening to those who struggled, which would imply that those who are still struggling will get their chance. So if one would argue that perhaps the 50s, if we were to talk about basically the post-war era up until civil rights was perhaps a law in terms of, I mean those who were at war came back and were no longer at war. But if you weren't in the connected to war in any way or military, then perhaps those years didn't mean the same to you as they would to someone who was connected to a soldier who had just come back from war war two or a soldier who was in Korea and their families, etc. If you were sort of like a generation in between like Florence who was just child in 19, not a child, but a teenager in starting her teenage years in 1953, then you didn't see things the same way. And so the change you wanted was what you saw. Like you saw the world, the entire world come together with the UN and we're all one people and all that. Well, what about African Americans? And so that was the next sort of closure that this country needed. And so her personal situation versus the world events was very much like the domestic situation in the United States versus the world events. And so the US changed, if we were to talk about the change, the exchange on the outside causing change on the inside, then we can say that the end of the war and the establishment of the UN created a sense of a new world order. Well, there had to be an internal domestic new world order, a new domestic order. And that I would say started, at least socially with African Americans and civil rights. But it also involved space exploration too with NASA. And so that was another kind of new world order. But so, you know, individuals see this external change around them. And in an effort to celebrate it and in an effort to be a part of it, want to, you know, espouse those new practices and beliefs in their own way. And so, how did, how better to do this than to be the change in the world? Be the change that you want to be, that you want to see in the world like Gandhi said. And I got to find out when that quote was. And so, I want to track basically Florence's subconscious, subconsciousness or subconscious mind in the diary. The letters are gone. They're sent. It's really, I think, it might be a stretch to claim that Florence wrote letters as she's in her sleep. But it's possible. But that would mean that she would have to know that would have to be a routine and sleep. I don't know. I think it's not that much routine of a routine to know. It's kind of a stretch. It's a quirky thing in the novel. And it obviously makes it interesting. But I don't, I think the fact that she was a sleepwalker makes it interesting, for her to say that she was a sleepwalker and in order to keep her from walking, walking, you know, she was, she was somehow trained into writing letters. It's interesting, but a bit of a stretch. I think it's too far of a leap to convince or not convince, but engage a reader. And so, I don't know if I'm going to say that. And then what else? So where am I getting with all of this? Back to Rosalithia. Well, Rosalithia, you know, it's 1994. What is her motivation? I mean, we know Florence was basically motivated by wanting to be the change that she saw in the world. But Rosalithia, perhaps, was a result of that change. And so, you know, here we see a family that won, although they didn't want to necessarily, well, we have to think about how they became wealthy. But we have to assume that they decided to take the money that perhaps they earned through less ethical means, perhaps by way of drilling oil, you know, or growing cotton, and put it to good use. And so they decide, obviously, to adopt a girl from Mexico. All right, I've parked. Well, anyway, I want to continue this, but I will have to do it later. Maybe I'll be able to do it on the walk. I don't know. But my final point is, is that what is Rosalithia's emotional state and what has caused it? That's her motivation. I think it has to have reached some climax, you know. And so her anger will have to be at an all-time high, and her, her, her, her, the fight will be converted. Her fight response will, will have kind of dissipated, and her flight response will have kicked in. I think that's the best way to put it. So, yeah. So I'm not sure if this is exactly what I wanted to say, but I've definitely been thinking about, you know, Florence's awareness that she's a sleepwalker and communicating that to the reader, and somehow that awareness becoming part of a foreshadowing. And so that's one thing. And so maybe when what Florence actually does is told through what Alithia does, Rosalithia, and then it's all kind of explained by the, you know, how Horace got his name essentially, or the origin of Horace's name, how her name was. I mean, one could argue that Florence was sleepwalking in the hospital, or in a coma, she was talking in her coma, not really sure. And perhaps that is how the nurse recorded Horace and not H.O.R.U.S. And so that's another possibility. But the idea is that, yeah, we, I think I want to consider the fact that Florence, who represents Western civilization, is half awake, meaning half aware of its identity, and that is represented, you know, through the sleepwalking. And how it doesn't really know itself that way. And at the same time, the Eastern world, Egypt, and Horace itself plays this, you know, plays the part of the one left behind, so to speak in a flight response. But the actual meeting of the two is a return to kind of an order that was waiting to establish itself. So the, the disjunction is the fact that East is waiting to reunite with West. And they are two halves of the same whole. And so Florence's foreshadowing are Rosa Alethea's and Horace's Florence perhaps narrates the story through her, through her book. And that narration results in a connection to the actions that Rosa Alethea and Horace take. That's it for now.